There For I Have Awakend

               The morning came quickly and I was feeling like absolute crap. I had pain and I was sweating like a fool. I was npo which means nothing by mouth, and the cafeteria brought in breakfast which was liquid only. I looked at them and said " I don't think I should be having this. I have my NG tube in to take pressure off my bowel.              While I had been on this floor the surgeon had left for the weekend. She wanted to see how I was doing by Monday when she got back. I feel lucky though, because I was blessed with the best doctor around. He was the chief of general surgery, so I knew I was in good hands. I was really holding on the the hope that I would pass this partial blockage.            Around 11:00am my doctor came in. I will never ever ever forget what he said. "We have found a hole in your intestine and we see air coming from it. Your surgery will be toda...

                        That Thursday evening on the 26th of May they wanted to bring me down to  have an xray. All day I had been complaining about this pain. I honestly thought it was a  stitch. It really hurt but I was lucky I was all drugged up so I didn't feel all the pain I    should have. I went manic. I was so hopped up on steroids and pain killers. So since I had  been complaining and they were checking up on me, it was time for an xray.                  I was trying to lay flat on my bed. I could not keep my right leg down and   relaxed or this so called "stitch". The  X - ray  technologists came and picked me up. She  was so humble to be around. I remember telling her everything that had been  happening. I  told her the whole story. I am a social person and when drugged ...

                                       One of the nurses I had just had brought in a bed. They wanted to switch me over to a regular bed since I was being admitted. By this time I was frightened. Thinking to myself " Wow this is the big moment..this is the pain I have been potentially waiting for." How messed up is that. To have to think to yourself are you sick enough to go to the hospital ? It's pathetic actually. As I know many people go into the hospital with crohn's disease and they look at people like me like drug addicts. So from what I knew in the past experience going in for just fluids and meds, you basically have to be almost dying to receive them. Not that I think they wouldn't but the ER itself is not trained for this disease. Almost like if you can get through the ER then you will  receive proper care. The health care system sucks.        ...

             I am sitting there and hoping with all my might that I wouldn't throw up. Since throwing up was a scary part of my past time. When I was little I would always try as hard as I  could to not puke. Did it work ? No. Good try though right. I was told I had a partial blockage. I had only a little idea what they were talking about. In the past I swear I have had a partial blockage a few times in the past. One example was when Megan and I were visiting her family in Illinois. We had been visiting a few years before this. We took a bus and traveled to see her mom, stepfather, and sister. I always seemed to be really sick when I traveled. I would have to sleep, sleep, and sleep. Then I still felt terrible. The food is different. So although it was so yummy but belly was not used to it. So lets back it up to this night where I believed to have a partial blockage. We had gone to bed at a pretty late time. Megan and I had fell asleep. Then lik...

      As I laid there when the IV started coming out was just bleeding everywhere. My mom and Megan my wife came up to me and stood on both sides of me. Now obviously why would I want to take my IV out when i know that I need it ? Please note: I was being treated terrible and very rough. I was soaked in sweat and I was SO hot. If you want to know, I do have hot sweats and they run in the family. You know how when you get so sweaty that you shiver ? That was me. When I say I was shivering, it's no joke. I was soaked in sweat and hot. So my first nurse came back in to finally check on me. He was gone a good half hour. I sat there with my IV out for awhile. When he comes in the room he started to say I took the IV out. It was either a different nurse or the Dr I can't remember. My mom was there and she told them I did not pull it out. I stated " I want another nurse please! " So that's exactly what I got. I was even a little excited because it was a female nurse. N...

             As I laid on the floor, I hope and prayed it wouldn't turn out to be more. As eyes drew heavy and I was so hot. If you could think of how a microwave cooks things from the inside out. That's how I felt. Sweat was just pouring off of me. My wife called 911 as I laid there and rested. She gathered all the cats, so that they wouldn't run outside. They would of have let them out by the way they treated me as an human that was a child. I was laying on the floor as my mom came in. At this point the ambulance people are ready to show up. My mom was waving me down with a fan, the one she made out of a book. She fell to her knees when she got here. If you could have only see that look. It was like the strength of my families life just drain from them. The more sick I felt the more I drained their soul.  The paramedics are horrible. They didn't help me to the stretcher, they also didn't want me to put my sandal on. I was told I would be ...